Holiday Horoscopes

Aries: This season you should be thankful for what you're not getting- herpes.

Taurus: You make an ugly Christmas sweater look good. Unfortunately, this can lead to Uncle Jimmy making some awkward advances after his third eggnog.

Gemini: A moose will find its way to your home and destroy your living room.

Cancer: This year help out at a local soup kitchen. Your reward? A new drinking buddy.

Leo: Be weary of who you invite to eat dinner with you. They might just have the dead body of their mother shoved in their trunk.

Virgo: Don't forget that Christmas is really a celebration of Jesus' birthday. Throw him the party he deserves by inviting over virgins and drinking to excess.

Libra: There's no need to worry about not making Santa's nice list; he always wants you to be naughtier. It's disturbing.

Scorpio: If you see flashing lights, it's not your neighbor's decorations. The cops have been called on your family.

Sagittarius: Someone will give you all the gifts from the 12 days of Christmas. Although flattering, it is very inconvenient.

Capricorn: Remember the lyrics to "Mail Myself To You"? That package has been lost in the mail and you probably won't receive it until mid-June.

Aquarius: Going to mass on Christmas won't save your soul. Spend that time building an offensive snowman, letting your neighbors know how you really feel about winter.

Pisces: An unexpected encounter under the mistletoe will have you questioning your sexuality.

I miss

I miss

RCPN nights with Mr. Wafflehouse

Sitting in the middle of country roads with Janssen and drinking out of the bottle while we discuss our lives and the complexity of it all

The way Mr. Daye would blame everything on Austin

Trying out crazy dance moves with Adam in the middle of a packed bar

Making out in the backseat of cars

Hearing all of the kids call me “Miss Destiny”

The way that Hannah Park reads everything aloud as if it were the story of a great leader who has passed away and each word carries the weight of their soul

Hanging outside of Sami’s sunroof while she drives around town

Jumping off telephone poles into the ocean

Eating my chocolate birthday cake on September 9^th for breakfast

The way my heart would race when I was close enough to smell the Givenchy cologne on his skin

Answering every single question in Mrs. Powers Spanish class with “Me gusta el autobus.”

How Jonathon makes a story come to life

Spending Sunday evenings with Todd

Going trick or treating with Danielle and seeing how much candy we could acquire

Powerhours with Alex

Eating subway with my mom while we’d watch TGIF

Maria’s mad bartending skills

Clenching the handle of Eleanor and fearing for my life

Coaching gymnastics

Kisses in the airport that would halt time and a smile on his face that let everyone know he was mine

Sneaking into every other picture at sailing parties

Sneaking into bars with Star and claiming that I was simply going to order food

Sneaking into my apartment after spending the night with the boy I shouldn’t have

When my dad would tell me to put a brick on my head, so I’d stop growing and always be his little girl

Mundane Meet Beautiful

When I need to run to the grocery store for a simple item, I typically just go the Fareway in Norwalk.  I just hop in the Kia Rio, cruise up the driveway, and then it's a right, right, left, left, right, right and I'm there!  Some days (even though it is only ten minutes away)  this can seem like a daunting task that I'd rather just put off.  I can't even lie about this, today was one of those days.  It was strange though, as I made my first right turn out of my drive, I began to open my eyes and really look at the land around me.  This is a gorgeous place.  Clouds were floating through the sky and the sun was warming the Earth that had previously been drenched.  As I went further along, I noticed how the farmers had planted their crops.  The soy beans growing in perfect lines and the corn promising to double in height.  It was on my first left turn that I got to my favorite part of the drive- the horses.  Sometimes they run along the fence, enjoying the open field.  Today they were standing alongside the fence, casually watching the few cars that might make their way down the road.  I couldn't help myself and had to stop to take this picture.  The sky, the grass, the horses.  It was all so...lovely.  This is my drive to the grocery store?  Yes, this is my drive to the grocery store.  It occurred to me that this is so lovely and how often I take this for granted.  So, I leave you with this realization and I ask you to try to notice your surroundings tomorrow when commuting somewhere that you might normally just overlook.  Everyday is beautiful.  

Blast From The Past

While going through very old papers, I found this assignment.  It's not dated, but I'm guessing it goes back to Freshman year high school. I remember always having writing prompts and never taking them too seriously (this doesn't sound familiar...) Here's a little then, now. 

If I could be a farm animal

If I could be any farm animal on any farm, I would have to be a cow.  Mainly because they make such a cool noise.  There are a few other reasons why I'd be a cow.  One, I'd get to stand around all day and eat grass, occasionally stopping to let out a sound or two.  Second,  I would sleep standing up, which is pretty different from now, because I have to sleep laying down.  Oh, and another cool thing about being a cow is that I'd walk around on four legs.  Another perk, is all the kids would draw pictures of me or sing the Old McDonald song and I'd be in it.  How cool?  With all of the ups of being a cow, there is a down.  The fact that once I reached my maximum potential I'd get chopped up and delivered to grocery stores for people to cook and eat me.  But hey,  it'd still be fun to be a cow!    

I Feel Like Walking The World...

I have about 25,000 miles to use before July or otherwise they expire, so clearly I must travel.  This is where your opinion comes into play...I need suggestions on where to go, for how long and when.  Ideas?  

I'm thinking maybe Europe or South America or really anywhere...Let the ideas flow.

Thoughts for Thursday

Sometimes I wonder about curious things...

Like if I were like an octopus and had eight different arms would they all grab for eight separate things and leave me overwhelmed with possibilities or could they work together to move me towards one goal?  

What if I was like a giraffe and could see above the rest?  Would I feel so privileged to have what the others don't or would I get lonely?

How about if I knew how my life would end up?  Could I just accept that reality or would I try with everything I had to fight it?

Sometimes I wonder about people who have such a passion for something.  I wonder where is mine?  What happened for them to be so devoted to their cause?  How does one sweat their life mission from every pore and fight the battles even when everyone says it's impossible to win?

If I had an infomercial, I wonder what I would sell.

My anxiety overwhelms me at times and sometimes I think what if because of it I didn't go out and do what I wanted/needed to.  What if it would have been an important moment of my life and I missed it because I let my mind get the best of me?

And of course, because I'm a girl, I always wonder what I should wear.

This Life Is As Easy As It Seems

"Make choices based on what you want to do not what everyone thinks you should do."  -My daily horoscope from my phone.  

I am well aware that this is generic advice and could be given to anyone, but sometimes, it's just right.  Everything is so cloudy lately.  I typically go with my gut feeling, but now I'm not so sure.  I feel pressure from life to be more than I am at the moment.  

I could go back to school and get a degree that wouldn't make me happy and make more money so by standards more money would lead to a greater happiness?  Absurd.  Even just writing that has opened my soul to see how wrong it would be for me to stay.   Staying in one place because you're scared of failing seems ridiculous.  Also, living my life how another person sees fit, because they didn't use their life wisely isn't really living my life.  

While I don't know where my life will take me, I do know that I can't just do something because I think it will make someone else happy.  Joy is something I can have now.  It isn't something I have to have a degree for.  Happiness won't be on my paycheck.  In my life, the pause button doesn't work.